My last day =(

Today is my last day home with Makenzie. I start working full time at the office again on Monday. I have mixed emotions about it. Part of me is ready. I'm ready to get things back to normal around here. I can't live in this little fairy tale world where I'm a SAHM forever. Everyone kind of needs to get on a schedule and get used to how things are going to be. And part of me is actually ready to get back to my job, although I know I'll regret saying that by 10:00 on Monday.

And the other part of me is hurting so badly. My heart is just breaking to leave my little girl. I've enjoyed my time with her so much and I'm really going to miss it. I'm going to miss cuddling with her in my bed in the morning and taking our 2:00 nap together. I'm going to miss playing with her all day and just seeing her smiling face all day long. I'm just going to miss everything about her! I was telling Art lastnight that I remember my first week home alone with her and how the days used to go so slow. I used to count down the minutes for him to get home. Now the days go so fast! He comes home and I can't believe it's 6:00 already!

Thankfully she doesn't start at the babysitters until January 5th. My office is closed Thursday and Friday for the next two weeks so I'm only working 2 1/2 days and my Mom and Art have taken the rest of the days off to stay with her. I think if I had to deal with starting work and having her start at the babysitters on Monday I'd be a total wreck right now!!!

But like I said, it's time! I've been home for almost 5 months and I am just so thankful that I was able to take this much time off with her. She must have known it was our last week home together because Wednesday she gave me a little surprise and rolled onto her side. She's so darn cute!

On a side note, yesterday was one year since we found out we were expecting! How different your life can be in 1 year!